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Name: Ruth
Country: United States
State: Virginia
Metro: Lynchburg
Birthday: 8/7/1987
Interests: God, singing in the shower, running through cornfields, laughing, karate, playing the fiddle, exploring, playing cards, meteor showers and the moon, water, the ocean, mermaids, Jesus, motorcycles, adventure, wide-open spaces, basketball, road-trips with friends, coffee shops, mountains, kittens, my family, swimming, running, cuddling, romance, smiling, seeing others smile...
Expertise: Laughing (I practice all the time), fiddling, karate, making a fool of myself, getting lost (and loving it), making espresso, children...and other random stuff...
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AIM:  flippergirl087
Member Since:
1/23/2005
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| I would just like to say if you want to know what's going on... just read the poem a two entries down. ....funny how it is a year later and it's even more true.
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| Life continues to surprise me. Things that I thought would be so hard come as easy as breathing and the things I thought would be easy, well, most of them still are but there's still a few that need to be worked out.
I'm going to the Grace Christian Church Fellowship (I really don't know the name for it, I'll just refer to it as the Knopp Church) and it's been amazing. I have been able to reconnect with some great people, make news friends and actually, well, never mind.... that's a story for another time. I work at the Daily Grind now which is great. And yet, the best of all the ridiculously long list of good things in my life right now is that my brother and niece are now once again part of my family and are actually my roommates! How sweet is that?! Right now Christ is at his first day of work and Ana is at her first day of daycare which means that I have the first moments at home all by myself for the past two weeks.
God has been showing up for me in tremendous ways and continues to blow me away. I can feel the moment that I start to lose track of Him in my life though, the moment my thoughts are centered on Him and I can feel the emptiness of it. In the past I didn't realize what that emptiness was and unfortunately it would manifest it's self in my relationships. Most often the romantic ones. I would translate that emptiness for loneliness | | |
| One day my heart won't stop when I'm reminded, When I see that picture I used to love, But now can't have around. Or, when I check the mail and nothing's there. Someday when there have been no missed calls, I'll be just fine. Eventually, whenever the hectic pace of the day Slows so I have time to think... I won't start to cry. I'll be fine. I couldn't imagine life without you... Yet, now, I find myself faced with it everyday. I always knew there was a chance it might happen, But how was I to know how wrong it would feel? My whole body and soul resists, fighting against what It now must face. It's unnatural. Alien... This life without you. | | |
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It's so serial that I'm actually in Staunton. Two months ago I didn't even have any inclination to move and yet here I am. Quite suddenly as well. It was a surprise even for me. But here I am. I have been attending karate classes Monday through Thursday from four until ten and my body has never been so sore. It didn't help that I got into a car accident yesterday. I think I got some whiplash, my head won't stop throbbing and my left shoulder hurts considerably more than the rest of my body which I can barely move right now. Thank God it's the weekend so karate isn't something I have to worry about until Monday afternoon. I just have to get to church on time. I went to bed as soon as I got home last night, slept through my alarm and woke up at around five-- so much for getting things done. I had a few odd dreams though. One I was driving and I pressed on the breaks but they didn't work and I slid out into this intersection and barely made it across without getting hit. (I think I have the evening's events to thank for that one) And the other one I found two beautiful dresses that would have been perfect for dancing to praise and worship and they were only five dollars each. I was very disappointed when I woke up and found out that it was only a dream. I find it kind of funny that I bargain hunt even in my dreams.
I was talking to Rob on the phone today and he was worried about me because I sounded loopy to him. I can see his point but now I'm afraid that I always sound like that, and it's also making me go over our entire conversation repeatedly in order to find out exactly it was I was saying that made me sound loopy. I'm at a loss though. But then again I can only remember certain parts of the conversation. I don't think I have ever been very good at that. Anyways...
I am determined to get the cardboard boxes off my porch once and for all. The only problem is that they don't fit into my car, so my friend Jeff has graciously offered to haul them off in his truck and burn them on his farm. I would love to be there for that. Those boxes not only have been cluttering my house but they were very difficult to transport across the country and caused a lot of back-pain from having to lift them. To see their demise would be a great treat. Though, I have to say. I am very grateful for them as well seeing as they did offer the most wonderful assistance in keeping my things neat over the move. Maybe I should just keep them. I'll decide tomorrow. As for the trash... it can be thrown out at the soonest convenience without any second thoughts on my part.
Things to do tomorrow.
-cover my body in Tiger Balm
-Make it to church
-Decide on the fate of my boxes
-Finally take out the trash
-Have dinner with my neighbors
-Make my bed
-Soak in a very hot tub for at least three hours
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| Christmas is coming, and for the first time ever I will not be spending it with my family. Everytime that I think about that part of my heart breaks. But something exciting is that tonight was Bloomington's first snow! I was out taking pictures with my new camera (D40 Nikon, 6 megapixal, SLR, digital--pretty much amazing!). I think that I have taken over a thousand pictures already and still my camera has room for more--pretty exciting huh? I have this candle from yankee candle co. that smells just like chistmas trees and I keep it burning almost constantly. So my house smells like christmas even if I don't get to actually have a live tree. I also got a couple of books to snuggle up with while the world turns a fridgid, glistening white outside. I love that. I love snuggling with lots of blankets, a good book, a sweet smelling candle and a cup of tea in a nice big mug along with a couple of kittens snuggling for warmth at the foot of my bed. Tomorrow I am going shopping for a new bed. It's kind of up in the air whether or not I will make my frame or buy a used one. If they don't have one I like I have a good idea on how to make one pretty cheaply and it'll be almost exactly what I want as well. But it might be cheaper just to buy one if I can get a good deal somewhere, which is highly likely--afterall, I am my mother's daughter. My little apartment is slowly becoming my own little haven, perfectly suited to me and completely unique. Just wait a month and some change and it'll be all done. Then, in the spring I can start working on the yard and my rose garden which is currently peacefully hiberbating. | | |
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